The Nihilist

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A woman with black hair pointed a revolver at my face and pulled the trigger. When the bullet exited the barrel of the gun, however, everything went into super slow motion and I could see the projectile slowly traveling towards my forehead.

Eventually, when it penetrated my skull and entered my brain, I could feel my consciousness starting to fade away and with it the whole world began falling away as I slowly succumbed into nothingness—as I did, I felt the greatest sense of peace that I had ever felt in my life.

When I woke up from the dream, I realized that I didn’t want to be awake at all. I wanted the dream to continue. Forever. For being dead didn’t hurt. Only being alive did.

Most people feared death and the nothingness it brought. That’s why we’d invented impossible ideas such as rebirth and afterlife. Why we put dying people on life support. Why suicide was stigmatized. And why we overall tried to think about death as little as possible.

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